Now that 2008 is almost over, I’ m starting to look back on it. The year has been exceedingly difficult, and yet, there have been some pleasant moments.
Some pleasant moments:
- Gigantour 2008 in Louisville with Matt, Greyson, and Bob.
- Breaking Benjamin and Seether in Evansville.
- Nine Inch Nails in Nashville on Halloween with Duane, Russel, Lisa, and Mat.
- Actually getting my site sort of up and running.
- Talking to an absolutely amazing and wonderful girl, yet still VERY confused as to what may happen.
- Still having a job.
- Food.
- Having 3 wonderful nieces to play with and make smile.
Some very unpleasant moments:
- My friends talking down to me, and thinking I’m delusional.
- Having my heart broken, twice.
- Missing my friends.
- Not getting a career started.
- Being cheated out of opportunities.
Some absolutely horrible moments:
- A certain “company” and their NDA, and dropping me from a contract that wasn’t properly voided. That was just a day or two before the beta release of their “product”, which has not done much from the looks of it.
- Getting laid off from my job, and thrown into the freezer on 13 day work-shifts.
- Losing Uncle Norman the day before Halloween.
- Missing friends.
- Not getting the few jobs that I really felt I had a chance and had interviewed well for. I guess I’m not meant to have a good job and utilize my degree.
- Losing one of my favorite residents from the nursing home. Poor Bonnie passed away this year as well.
I can probably go on and on about things. 2008 has not been a good year for me. I felt that I interviewed well at Unfirst, Unilever, the City of Owensboro, University of Kentucky, and the various other jobs that I had tried to attain. Perhaps, I went to school for the wrong degree, and I’m suffering the consequences as I sit here and write this. To think, last year I was celebrating my graduation and the start of 2008. A year ago today! Who would have thought that I have gotten nowhere in this year? I sure didn’t. I was ready to start off 2008 as a new and wonderful year, and yet, suffered losses just as powerful and stressful as last year.
Honestly, I can say I’m truly afraid of what 2009 will bring me. Since 2000, I have not YET had a good year, or a truly splendid and euphoric moment. To think upon that is truly, truly sad. Sure, I’m more fortunate than some people, but to work as hard as I do to achieve ABSOLUTELY nothing is disheartening and painful.
The next job I’m trying go after is one of two System Analyst jobs that are actually here in Owensboro at Southern Star Central Gas Pipeline. Those two jobs are EXACTLY the kind of job I’ve been looking for since I graduated. Actually, since BEFORE I graduated. I would absolutely be ecstatic if I got the job.
Maybe one day, God will smile on me.